Thursday, January 5, 2012

looking for a better day

I feel a bit better this morning. I had weird dreams. not like the night prior. those were bad dreams. well, dreams of the day she died. one of the reasons i has such a rough day yesterday. i cried a lot. i thought of her a lot. its ok. i also got a lot of stuff done yesterday around the house and put other projects in motion. kezia was worried about me, but i was just trying to keep busy and focused. she is awesome and i worry about her too. right now we are just trying to do things to keep from getting board. today will be a better day i hope. just taking it one bit at a time right now. more later.

9 comments:

  1. Prayers in your direction Mike,

    CL

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  2. I think about you, Kezia and Saoirse contstantly. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about your loss and sometimes I cry. Why has the unconscionable loss of a family I don't even know keeping me up at night? I don't know. It could be the sheer magnitude of it. It could be that my daugter was born in June 2010 as well. It could be the thought of Saorise's dimples. I don't know and I will not ask why. I am just taking it as a sign that my mission now is raise awareness and funs for neuroblastoma. I have no idea how you and Kezia will find peace, but I pray daily that you do.

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  3. it is good to focus on something else so that you don't feel that pain. Try to do some works outside of the house or go walking... it helps. I know you miss your little angel but she wants you to be better. You will overcome this! we are praying for you and your wife!

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  4. Yep.. Taking it one day at a time.. That's a start. It will get better, I promise...

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  5. Mike, just wanted to let you know how proud I am to call you my friend. You did everything you thought to be right for Saiorse and continue on the right path for so many other children. You have shown so much strength and so much tenderness over the past year. If there its anything I can do to help, please let me know. Much love to you and your fight!
    Your friend,
    Marc Arvilla

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  6. Glad today has been a bit easier than yesterday. Thinking of you and Kezia every day.
    Courtney Rasey

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  7. I found your posts by accident. I wanted to say how sorry I am that you have sustained such a loss. Cancer sucks. I know, my family has had many battles with it some cancer won and others we did. It is a never ending battle but the resolve of people like us who have lost someone they love so deeply will help to take it out in the end. You have a beautiful little angel watching you from heaven now. Feel her love as I know you will. Soon I pray it will bring you peace.
    Kay-Lynn Pack

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  8. I am glad to know you are taking a small step by taking it easy with things. It is alright to cry, it helps to express your emotions. Like others are saying, I often think about you two and pray daily.

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  9. Praying for you and your wife.
    One day at a time....

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