I am so very sad today. My pain runs deep. I woke up crying at 8am this morning and stopped at .. well still haven't. I miss Saoirse so so much. I hear her talking, crying, laughing, eating and singing.
I need to go buy a ladder today
I need to go for a walk
I need to clean
I need to do something to help bring better quality of life and a cure for children with Neuroblastoma.
I need to just grieve my daughters death my way.. in my own time with out any pressure. I talk to people I feel comfortable with. I write. I work. I am excited about planning and building our business. I am excited about having more children. I am excited about working on a few of my art projects. I am excited about spending time with Kezia. I am just so lost sometimes. so i keep busy. I allow myself to feel.
Kezia wrote in her blog today.. please read it. www.newmomnewcancer.blogspot.com