Sunday, January 8, 2012

I miss my daughter

I miss my daughter today. Badly. I am forcing myself to do things productive. I just feel so helpless and sad.


  1. Wish there was something I, or anyone, could do to make it better or easier in some way. As you know, I lost my brother to this. My mother, who 42 years later still can't really talk about it, says that the scars don't heal. If you're lucky, you can find a way to help them fade a bit. I think that you and Kezia will be luckier than that. You have a better 'tool kit'. And you talk. That will help you find a way.

    You are helpless to change the past. I know that that is a HUGE brick wall for you both to get past. When you do, and I absolutely believe you will (though you will carry pieces of it with you), you will be able to change the future for the better...Saoirse knows that too I think. I hope she comes to hug you again soon to give you strength.
    In my thoughts and heart, as always,

  2. Keep going Mike, you're doing it. One moment, one minute, one hour, one day closer to where you need to be. Baby steps and one breath at a time sometimes. I know you're trying so hard. Do what you need to when you need to. Be angry or cry when you need to. Take advice, and don't take advice, as you feel like it. Go with what you feel when you feel it and just keep moving. You are faced with the impossible and there is no right or wrong way to get through it. Hold her close. You gave her strength and comfort and she has carried that on with her. Allow yourself to share some of that from her now--she will happily share that with you, won't she.

  3. Dear Mike,
    You were the best father to Saiorse, don't doubt that. Saiorse has inspired so many people all over the world. You and Kezia have inspired so many people all over the world. I'm praying for you. When you feel down, just remember she is out of pain now, and as much as it hurts that she isn't here with us face-to-face, she IS here with you guys. She was so blessed to have such loving and caring parents.
    Thank you for inspiring me in more ways than you can possibly imagine. My pop died from cancer when I was younger, and ever since, I have wanted to become an oncologist so that I can fight the battle that he fought. I have been unsure if I could become one, but hearing Saiorse story has encouraged me not to give up. Saoirse never gave up and neither did you and Kezia.
    thank you so much for sharing your beautiful family's story.
    You're in my prayers

  4. Reading your posts and looking over her photos make me cry every time, I can only imagine the pain you feel. The pain and sadness will never go away, my mom still cries and cannot talk about her baby brother who died in 1950, but you have to be strong, fight for her and do things for her, so that she continues living through you and will always be a part of you.

  5. Mike,

    You have a lot of friends out here who are thinking of you guys.

    We never met your daughter, and we miss her too.

    Keep up the good work.

    You are in our prayers every day.