Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Update on Saoirse

Our beautiful daughter Saoirse passed away on Tuesday December 13th 2011 at 6:47 am. She fought hard but was just to tired. The pain is so unbearable and deep. I ache all over.

19 comments:

  1. I have no words...I am just so sorry.

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  2. May your sweet little girl play with the angels until you are all gathered together again.

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss...I will keep you and your wife in my prayers as you go through this...horribly sad time.

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  4. I know my words are of little comfort at this time, but please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be. My heart is broken, even though I have never had the priviledge to meet Saorise, I feel as though I lost a dear friend. She will always have a place in my heart.

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  5. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you, something, anything to ease your pain...but I have nothing. I can only tell you that I am praying, so very hard for you and your family, that you will someday find peace. You have an unbelievably brave, sweet, sweet angel in heaven.

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  6. I like the others can't think of anything that might ease your pain...I never met Saoirse but loved her like my own family since I first heard your story. I pray that God may ease your pain and give you peace that she is no longer suffering and that she is waiting for you in heaven. I know that families are eternal and that we will be together forever. Know that there are literally thousands of people who have been touched by your beautiful daughter and her fight has made so many more people aware of this horrible disease!

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  7. You are a wonderful, loving Daddy and always will be. Love is eternal and not even death can ever conquer it.

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  8. She was quite the fighter for sure and wow has she touched so many. She has had a profound effect on me. We will never stop fighting childhood cancer. My life has changed for the better because of your strong angel and because of ur love and honesty. Take time with your family and hug and cry together. Don't feel obligated to post or write for us now. You bith are strong --Damn strong! But, I know this pain must make u want to give up. Don't, for her sake. I will keep sharing your story and we will keep donating. I am just so terribly sorry. (Julie Grzesik Andzulis -Canandaigua NY)

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  9. Mike, I'm sorry I didn't get to talk to you as much yesterday but I want you to know I love both of you and it absolutely breaks my heart to know you are in so much pain. If there is anything I can do for either of you ever you know how to get a hold of me day or night.

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  10. I am so sorry. I have been following your blog for some time now. I was touched deeply by Saoirse. You have an angel.

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  11. I am so very sorry for your loss. I just lost my son Alexander to this horrible disease in April. I pray for peace for you and your wife as you face the next days and weeks ahead. It doesn't get easier - it just gets different. One day - one moment at a time, you will make it through.

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  12. sending love and thoughts to you and kezia and i am sorry for your loss.

    http://www.emilyhubbel.com

    shannon

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  13. I only just started to follow your blog last week. I'm really sorry for your loss. I know there is no word of comfort that will take the pain away from you, just stay strong and take care of each other.

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  14. Mike and Kezia, my heart breaks for you. I know that there is nothing anyone can say or do that will ease the wrenching pain you and Kezia are feeling. Your beautiful baby girl was such an amazing little trooper and what happened to her, and you, this year is the worst of tragedies. You and Kezia did everything humanly possible to save her. Never regret the fight-you were living an impossible nightmare, and there was still a chance and you had to try, for her.

    I don't believe in conventional heaven and hell. I believe that when we pass, our spirit exists in a sort of a dream state--when we were at our happiest and with those we loved the most. I believe that we are completely unaware that we are no longer physically 'alive' or that time doesn't really pass. In my belief, Saoirse is unaware of what has happened--your sweet baby girl truly is at her happiest as in her spirit she has you with her, playing with her and taking care of her, and she is not sick. Her beautiful dream will last forever--she will be with you and happy in your love forever. She is still with you and I hope you can feel her sometimes.

    The pain and the challenge, I know, is for those physically left behind, to survive and live on. Allow yourself time, cry, rage, talk and cry some more. Breath, though I know thats hard. And take care of yourself because nothing good can come from beating youself up, which can take many forms. When you can breath again (though I know that seems impossible now), I hope you can both find some purpose in all of this--it is a key to survival. Susan G. Komen's sister started the Susan G Komen Foundation for Breast Cancer (Run for the Cure) after Susan passed, to give her some purpose in Susan's passing. Perhaps it will be time for this world to put an end to horrors like what you and Saoirse have been through and similarily raise billions through something like the 'Saoirse Fitzgerald Foundation for Childhood Cancer'. It might be fitting--she is just the strongest and most special of little girls. But, for now, hug her stuffies, smell her clothes, hold onto each other, visit the good memories as best you can and reach out as much as you need to. Allow youselves time.

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  15. Mike and Kezia- I wish I could find some words to try to lend any sort of comfort to you. I have posted a couple of times here and there on your various blogs/FB as I have not gone a day without thinking of you all which is truly unlike me. I do believe things happen for a reason even when it is unforeseeable to us. I don't really believe in much so whatever has drawn me to your family and your struggles, love and heartache, I am thankful even though this ending was everything I hoped so hard for it not to happen. I have a 12 1/2 month old, Maggie, and a 16 y/o, Sierra, they are everything to me and I can't begin to fathom your loss. In all of this unfairness and pain I know there must be some amount in comfort knowing that Saoirse is now pain free and will no longer have to look to at the two of you wondering why she is suffering so. It must have been unbearable to not be able to take that away from her. I don't know you at all but it is so evident that you did everything you could and that you were all so lucky to have each other. I am sure that you have many people reaching out to you but if ever in the Midwest and wish someone to talk to it would be an honor to meet you. Where ever life takes you from here as allbou (in the post prior to mine) said remember to breathe and never lay blame or beat yourself up as there is no rhyme or reason for things like this and for that I will never understand. My deepest and most heartfelt sympathy goes out to you both. May you find peace in this journey.

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  16. Well said Robin.

    Audra Boudreau (allbou)

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  17. Love you baby Saoirse. you have shown great courage.
    @Mike, god has sent you his beautiful angel, knowing that you two would take the best care of his angel. However, he missed his angel so much.

    God bless you guys

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  18. I am so so sorry. My heart is brocken.

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  19. My heart and stomach and head all hurt just thinking about your sweet girl. I don't know you guys and only discovered that you all existed yesterday, but I want you to know that I love you guys. I'm sending you a bit of my heart to act as a place holder for the piece that's just been taken from yours. <3

    xo,
    Violet (via Kristen @ ProjectBaby)

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