Tuesday December 20th, 2011 4:15am.
This is an extremely difficult morning. It has almost been exactly 1 week since Saoirse's passing. All of the images are shooting back to my mind that I have been trying to replace with good ones. I knew this day would come. It's dreaded. But here. I am going to bring my parents to the airport now. It is 4:21 am and I should be back in about 90 minutes. I will miss my parents. Kezia and I went through some of the bags that were with us in the hospital last night. Clothes, medicines, bottles, food, stuffed animals. all Saoirse's. We have not cleaned out the diaper bag yet though. Thats gonna be a tough one. I miss my little girl.
I am a husband. A dad. A business owner. My wife's cancer relapsed. We have a 3 year old. Did I mention my kid died of cancer? I write about all of it.
Sending you and Kezia lots of love and prayers today to bring you strength. Your family is truly an inspiration to see the good in every moment.
ReplyDeleteA história da pequena é uma lição de vida! e vc são exemplos de pais, esse amor, carinho e a dedicação de vocês é a coisa mais linda do mundo!
ReplyDeleteFiquem em paz. Abraços com muito carinho.
I have held back until this point... simply for a lack of words. I've been following Kezia's blog for several months, and yours... well since it began. First, let me say that I am devastated. I couldn't believe it when I found out that Saoirse didn't make it. It just came as a total shock to me. Things seemed to be going well. Secondly I want to tell you, that the story you guys told... has inspired me. I now want to be a nurse. As hard and overwhelming as I imagine it would be... I feel that there would be a certain reward to it.
ReplyDeleteBe strong. Saoirse is resting now and free of pain. Sending much love and warmth and prayers your way. I can't believe how much you have been through.
take your time going through the things - it has been 8 months since my son died, and we haven't even started to clean up his room yet. one day - one MOMENT at a time! Just do what you can!
ReplyDeleteShe was here, she lived. She will always be loved and will never be forgotten. Someday you will meet again and you will be whole again. I will pray for you and your family for the rest of my life. mj
ReplyDeleteSending prayers for strength. You have been asked to bear more than any human ever should in the last year. You are clearly a wonderful husband and father and a strong man. May every day bring a little less pain and more hope.
ReplyDeleteSending many prayers your way. I, just like so many out there, are devastated. I can't imagine what you are going through. I lost my Dad to cancer 6 yrs ago, but I can't imagine what it feels like to lose a child. My heart goes out to you both. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it all better. Saoirse's spirit lives on! She is watching over you guys and would not want you to be sad.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you and Kezia. Both of you will get through this. Your pain will lessen in time and the love and joy that Saoirse brought into your lives will remain.
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