Friday, December 16, 2011

So Deep.

The mornings are the worse for me. I am so use to getting up and taking care of Saoirse, fixing her breakfast, playing with her toys with her and running around. My ache is so deep. So deep.


  1. I wish i could take your pain away, but I can't. All I can say is that Saoirse would want you to feel some type of love and peace at this time. She'd awnt you to remember her brilliant expressions and her laughter and find peace in knowing she's with her heavenly father now.. I know it doesn't make it easier but I hope it gets better....

    LOVE Steph...

    P.S. Ill be thinkin of you guys..

  2. My heart breaks for you. I cannot imagine the pain you both are in. Know that my thoughts, prayers and love are with you both.

  3. sending caring thoughts your way from another danvers family. ~the stoneys

  4. I do not know you, but you, your wife and beautiful and oh so strong daughter have been on my mind and in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be.

    A poem for you and your family, "My Wish for You":

    Comfort on difficult days,
    Smiles when sadness intrudes,
    Rainbows to follow the clouds,
    Laughter to kiss your lips,
    Sunsets to warm your heart,
    Gentle hugs when spirits sag,
    Friendships to brighten your being,
    Beauty for your eyes to see,
    Confidence for when you doubt,
    Faith so that you can believe,
    Courage to know yourself,
    Patience to accept the truth,
    And love to complete your life.

  5. I am so sorry Mike and Kezia. I can only imagine how bad this hurts. I post on here all the time because I was really touched by you and Sairose. I cry every time I read your posts. I am not a praying person but I sure have been parying for you all. I pray now for your strength. I do believe you will see her again. For now, don't give up. We will all fight with you. She has brought a lot of awareness to this illness. She made an enormaous impact , SO ARE YOU! You need to take care of yourselves now. Take time together to cry and hug and be angry. Be proud of what you have all accomplished. I will forever be grateful for all I have gained just by following you. I will continue to follow. I just wish I lived closer. *Julie Grzesik-Andzulis Canandaigua NY

  6. I'm so sorry for your enormous loss. Words can't even begin to express the deep sorrow & sadness I feel. With a 2 1/2 year old niece who also has cancer, I find myself taking nothing for granted anymore and I count my blessings each & every single day. Your beautiful daughter was an angel here on earth who graced your life with her wonderful spirit and she will never be forgotten.

    A friend,

  7. Mike I can't imagine the pain that you going trough. I will keep praying for you and Kezia. My son is 1 1/2 year he actually was born in June 9th. The first time I learned about Saroise was when I read the article in CNN, since then I just fall in love with your her. Something about Saroise caught my attention, it's hard to explain maybe because she has the same age as my son, I don't know. When I found out on Wednesday that Saoirse was not longer with us I cried ( I still crying sometimes) and when I got home after work I hugged my son with all my strength. Saroise has been an inspiration to me. Every time you feel sad surround yourself with people who loves you and remember that you have many people around the world who love and care about you

    Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
    From a Headstone in Ireland

  8. Mike,
    Ever since I found out about your wife Kezia and Saoirse I have been praying for them. Something about your little girl touched me deeply. You and Kezia were wonderful parents and did everything you could to give Saoirse a "normal" life. Saoirse was a bright light that shined on many lives. Your love for Saoirse will never go away and in time the pain will lessen. I will continue to pray for you and Kezia.

  9. Mike, I think mornings are the worst also because you keep waking up to a truly horrendous reality and missing Saoirse so damn much. I am so, so sorry and my heart aches for you and Kezia. My husband passed away from lung cancer about a year ago when our daughter was 2 months old. I can relate to what you are feeling, only I know the grief must be worse when it's your child. There are no words of comfort we can offer you...only support and commisseration (I am grieving for Saoirse too even though I didn't know her). Take care.

  10. Fique em paz, ela está com vocês o tempo todo!

  11. I just wish I could be next to you to support you :/

  12. {{{{{{{MIKE & KEZIA}}}}}}} - like a bridge over troubled water.....I will lay me down. I think this means that if I could I would take all your pain on me, if it would help you have a moments less grief.

  13. Hello Mike. Like so many others I have been following your fight since the CNN post. Your story has touched my heart and I have cried everyday for Saoirse and even before her untimely departure from this world. I wish we could all take away the deep ache and sorrow you and your wife feel. I can't imaging ever losing my daughter and I wish that you and other parents of children with cancer and other diseases didn't ever have to feel that loss. I send you both big big hugs and thoughts of strength. My dad is battling stage 4 adrenal esophageal cancer which has just spread to his spleen. He doesn't have long and my pain is a deep ache that I can't even describe and when I try to my throat closes up and I get a lump in it and I just cry. The strength u have I hope to have too. I admire you both. And I'm so so sorry. / Jennifer O'Dell

  14. Keep talking Mike, keep talking. We will be there to lift you up as best we can. I think of you and Kezia, and your sweet character Saoirse, all the time and cry often at the horrible unfairness of it all. My heart breaks for you. I lost my brother to this horrible thing 42 years ago and it destroyed my family. I would love nothing more than to finally see it become something easily caught, with regular screening in all children under 10, and successfully treated. She was gifted to you both for a reason, and you shared her, and your journey, with the world for a reason... For that courageous sacrifice, I truly thank you both.

    Audra from British Columbia