Today was a better day for me. Kezia is hopefully getting over her head cold. I feel bad for her. I hate being sick too. She has more blood work and a body scan in a few weeks. I can't wait. See, this is not over for me. Kezia is just newly in remission. I am stressed about that too. Saoirse's came back. Will Kezia's? I hope not. I don't think so actually. Its kinda rare for that cancer to come back. I worry. Thats all.
As I walked around today and drove around today I just wished Saoirse was with us. She would have loved it where we were. I did have a piece of her with me though. I kept picturing her walking and demanding to do her own thing. Hehe.. She loved exploring. She has brought a new meaning of life to me. Although there was a part of me that died when she died. I also think there has to be something that was borne in me at the same time. I am not entirely sure what that is yet. I will eventually though. I am sure.
I am keeping this short for now. I will write more later. I am probably going to put the computer (internet) down for a few days and focus on my stress and reducing it. Who knows, maybe I will be in a movie. :)... I will explain this later. It will all make sense.