split second moments

I got a lot done yesterday. I feel good about that. I have my garage back and now i can do the service to the snow blower :) No snow yet but need to be prepared. next project is the wood stove in the garage. not sure when though. i felt saoirses presence a lot yesterday. I have also been a bit worried about Fallon. When we started packing bins she started getting a bit nervous. extra play time today for her. I think she is sad a bit.

this morning i had that split second moment again. this time it was noise. i thought i made to much noise shutting the door to my bedroom.

deep breath.

we still have the bedroom to pack up as well as the toy corner in the living room. i am just not ready to fully do this yet. everything i touched of saoirse's for the past couple of days took my breath away a lot. i do not like that sensation. i need a break from organizing. today will be good. a family lunch at kezia's parents house which will be fun. emotional but fun and good to see bob and joan. and then keaia and i are having dinner with friends at Max Brenner's in Boston. Looking forward to the day and evening.

I will write more later.