Thursday, April 26, 2012

We had a beautiful child, Saoirse. I still find it hard to believe she is gone.

I miss her so much. I have so much to write about, and am. I will write more tonight. I need to. I had dreams last night that I was trying to get to her.. I could hear her crying for me. I kept going into different rooms.. I was running as fast as I could, but not moving. I was frustrated. All I wanted to do was find her, hold her, comfort her and let her know I love her.

Deep breath.


  1. Glad you are going to give yourself the time to write since you are needing that. Saoirse was beautiful - her beautiful spirit lives on and I know she loved you and Kezia and that she still does love you both. That love didn't die with her body. That's what I believe at least.

    I know it's hard to not have her here in body anymore, Mike. I know it must be. Keep being kind to yourself and giving yourself compassion and time to do what you need to do.

    Lots of love,

  2. I had a dream last night that Saoirse and Kez were playing together in a park. They were both the smiley, happy people I know and it was the most wonderful, purely good feeling to see them and I just sat and watched and laughed. I know you already know this but she's here and she's with you and she's so happy. Xoxoxo

  3. Keeping you all in my prayers.

  4. Praying for youu with tears in my eyes.