We had a beautiful child, Saoirse. I still find it hard to believe she is gone.
I miss her so much. I have so much to write about, and am. I will write more tonight. I need to. I had dreams last night that I was trying to get to her.. I could hear her crying for me. I kept going into different rooms.. I was running as fast as I could, but not moving. I was frustrated. All I wanted to do was find her, hold her, comfort her and let her know I love her.
Deep breath.